STEVE DIARIES

When it comes to sexuality or personal life styles we always gonna step in misunderstandings and wrong impressions, was always so clear in my mind what is being gay is all about that while my one year staying in Belo Horizonte –Brazil I found out through my friends (most of them heterosexual) what really cross straight people minds when they think about gay sexuality. I was astonished how easily we can pass the wrong impression and create a stereotype that not always reflects the true about the gay community in general.

But surprise, surprise, not only straight people has their miss concepts and stereotypes, gay people also do that in a different way, how many times I saw gays guys putting their safety at risk because they think that they can change any straight man into gay.

Like anyone else I just can give my point of view based in my own life and observation, im am what you may called (even that word sounds a little bit prejudice I think ) straight acting gay guy (but none of us are that 2 dimensional) im the guy that can easily and most of the time pass as straight man ,my voice is strong and im polite but a bit rough and butch ,thought the years I heard things from straight people like : - ah, you just haven’t found the right girl ( yeah sure, haven’t found one with cock so far ) our (that is lovely) God can wash the gay away from you so you stop living as a sinner ( normally who say that is a big closet queer in a tie married to a butch ex-lesbian )

(how you gonna ask for people respect your sexuality if you don´t respect theirs)

how many times I had gay friends of mine asking me to set myself free because they thought I was holding myself back our I was too shy to be myself ( or at least what they thought that would be me ) so not only some straight people think we are all screaming camp queens, the screaming camp queens also think that we are all screaming camp queens ,and the straight ones are just screaming camp queens in the closet waiting to be converted.

How can we educate about us when not even us no what we are ? but the thing is : the human being is very complex to be totally understood, the only difference about the gay diversity and straight diversity is that they don´t need to justify their existence like we do. Close to my sister house there is a street full of female prostitutes, so that means that all women sell their bodies? Oh no, just some women, everybody knows that ,but so why some people think that a masculine hunk gay man or a transsexual are prostitutes ?

Lately I had do learned and deal with my miss concept myself when the discussion in America about LGBT rights brought to the light on the web, tv shows and in my favourite podcast Feast of Fun what is be a transgender, I was always intrigued about the subject especially because a lot of people think that we are gay because deep inside we want to be women, and I always felt angry about it ( I never had any connection with the women’s world ,just a dude that like dudes ! lol ) and never let myself to actually understand it right, I was lucky, I was straight away accepted by my family, im not ashamed of my sexuality but if I don’t say it I can get away without people staring at me or doing comments, so if life as a gay is already harder for a more obvious gay guy ,I can only imagine of a what a life of a transsexual is with people constantly judging you and your choices.

This last week I downloaded a show that I always wanted to watch but is not available through my cable tv provider, RuPaul Drag race and of course the show is over the top camp, funny but also taught me a little bit more of this world where my knowledge doesn’t go much further than the shows I watched in gay clubs more than 10 years ago.

The line between gender and sexuality are very blurry those days, if you are a drag queen not necessarily means that you want to be a woman, if you are transgender not necessarily means you are gay ( yeah right there actually cases of operated transgender women who went from straight men to transgender female lesbians )

We are what we are, the more the human race involve more new definitions and contractions will appear and we will see not only some people but also ourselves questioning and getting wrong what is exactly the definition of “normal” I get in the point that what I think is abnormal is someone else trying to define what is normal, as long you not hurting anyone, is your right to cut, implant, shave, extended and do with your body what you do with your house in a way that makes more comfortable and beautiful for you and hey ,I don’t like your house lemon green walls but is you living there not me ,so why I should care ?

Big kisses for anyone that have the courage to stand up and against all odds be yourself !